Change is in the Air

There are big changes coming at work. I've been working with the same client for nearly 2 years and I really enjoy the people and the projects they've had me on. But now there is a major reorganization afoot. I am pretty sure they want to keep me as a consultant, but I also think they want me to travel 100% of the time again. Everything is just speculation and rumors at this point because we haven't been told anything for sure.

I am terrible at change and even worse with the unknown so this is throwing me for a loop. I am in constant stress mode, feeling like I need to be frantically working every second of the day. I know this is not healthy and I have tried my go to stress relievers, but they aren't working. Last night I went to outdoor yoga at Portland Head Light. It was a beautiful evening with a welcome cool breeze. But even as I flowed through the practice, gazing out at the ocean I couldn't turn my mind off. I came right home and checked my e-mail immediately.



This morning I got up early and went for a long run. I promised myself I'd just take it slow and easy so that it felt good and effortless. I ran along my favorite green belt path out to my beloved Bug Light. Again I just couldn't turn my mind off. I knew there was something wrong when I didn't do the last .25 miles to make it an even 12 miles (I am obsessed with running even numbers) and rushed home to start working again.

I know that I can't do anything to stop these changes and that what will be will be, but that doesn't make it any easier. Why can't I be one of those people who accepts change with grace and poise?